heeee im gona get sclded once again if i dont do tis hahaha =) these past few daes were remarcably happier i gues im reali psyched abt sch n all heh n i tink teaching the kids reali help its like u may be so fcked up be4 u get to werk bt once u strt wwrking u forget wat u were angry abt n the kids jus make u smile....i taught a 7 year old british boy and he acidentaly painted his finger blue n he cried saying my hands are gona sty blue forever n everything i touch is gona turn blue....its these little silly tings tt kids sae tt make u reali wish u were a kid again having ntin to wori abt maybe the ocasional mistakes we did bt nting big...i met up wit insyi 2 daes ago figure the date out ureself bt yea i met her we went for a movie and met smeone else in btwn as well hahaha i had heaps of fun i didnt realise there was so much to sae its like we cn tok abt aniting n nvr stop tts the bad part though haaahh....wats weird is we were nvr reali close during primary sch bt nw shes ntings less thn a sister to me i gues as time goes u slowly manage to find the people who reali treasure u as a friend n reali value as a friend n nt jus use u to their benefit thn kick u hard on the ground whn ure alrdy dwn...

i saed tis to smeone a few daes ago no matter hw much someone tries to make u happy if u stil insist on tinkking tt ure life is a sad sad ting thn theres nting anione cn do for u onli u cn change the wae u tink n the wae u live the onli thing the people in ure life cn do is be there for u whn u need thm to n tts basically it..was it abit harsh? or was it a good wake up cal for both me n tt person? n im onli 17 hw much pain cud i hav been thru compared to smeone older thn me...well i hav lived wit so much shyt so far wat wud a litle bit more do huh? n besides i hav awesome buddies to help me thru tis shyt hole i call life n get outta tis place i call home...

and u noe wat cme to tink of it i reali am numb inside like im unable to giv my al animore its like whn u get a new book u get super exicted abt n strt planning in ure head whn ure gonna read it n make an oath to finish within a specific time and carry it aniwhr and everywhr..bt whn its reali urs u keep tis up for abt a week and slowly find ureself throwing the book all over the place and end up nt finishing it withing the date u set ureself to well tts hw i feel...bt reality wise my heart has grown cold and stiff maybe it will change n warm up again bt its gona take a lng lng while for tt to happen tts for sure bt al tt matters is tt im happy n living not exactly well bt im alive so i tink tts good enuf....hahaha aniwaess enuf sappy stuff cos someone jus saed i write sad stuff on my blog which i dont reali tink is true...hahahha who caresss...aniwaesss....

bleahs tis bitch has lost topics to write abt hahahaha aniwaes i'l write soon =)

i dont noe y it just doesnt seem like me like natasha isnt just herself animore i cant reali explain fuly wat i mean bt i tink u had tt feeling before rite? like whn sumting happend to u n u normally jus get over super easily bt yet tis one incident jus make u want to sty frozen in time or if possible jus go back in time and wish tt it nvr happend so u wont be stuck in this charade tt u made for ureself...whrever i go i c families happy n tink are thy just like me? we laugh n smile infrnt of people bt in this place we call hme the sounds of cries screams frm quarrells and shatters of heartsbreaking jus linger along the alleys and corners no matter hw hard u try to tell ureself tt its all over and its gona be fine it jus doesnt change does it? my aunty was tokin to me todae abt my family thn it hit me many hav been tokin to me abt tis thn whn i tld her i choose to nt say aniting becos i dont c wat i cn do n thn she saed tis im onli a kid its not my duty to keep the hse functioning well n its gd tt i dont argue much its a step to me being a child tts filial bt deep dwn i tink again is tis reali true is ignorance reali bliss? wud tt reali get me aniwhr i lost things reali dear to me becos of my parents my social life basically disapeared im nt tt ever ready natasha animre i dnt noe whr she went im finding her bt wat i feared most is happening im losing her i may not show it to anione bt i noe theres onli one person tt noes me hes stil the one i love i reali dnt wana let go n wish we cud strt over bt reali i noe we both are still madly in love its jus complications like a technical glitch to a game tis is a glitch in a relationship with the right wires n software i cn fix it cnt i? i hope i cn onli time cn tell my love for him stays deep wit jus a little hiccups here and there i noe ive saed n done tings tt i shudnt have bt i am human arent i? i made mistakes i hav been doing tt over n over bt hes one ting tt i nvr wan to lose cos of a silly mistake cos no matter hw hard i try i cnt get over him its jus the love and the hug n the kisses we share cn nvr compare to aniting else hes fixed in my heart no amount of time cn change it....im so sori i sound so emo bt tts jus me rite nw i duno whn wud tinks take a turn bt i hope its soon being at hme feels like prison rite nw

hello everyone hahah its beeen a reali lng time since i came in heree....well many tings changed hmm for a start results are out n well i cant sae tt i'm reali shocked bt i expected i wudnt do tt well...bt i can go to poly so i;m settling for tt...hmm well hav been wit the same guy for 6 months nw so i tink i'm doing well socially bt family wise ermm...i tink theres sme stuff tt needs to be fixed

elloooosss everyoneee its been seriously forver since i typed here hahaha there was heaps loads of stuff going onn...n using the com wasnt on the agenda at all....

oh weelss the o's are finali over noww..hahha hmmm i tink i changed alot based on hw i handle relationships n guys on the whole i didnt realise tt the one i wanted was there for me all along instead i did things tt i reali shudnt have to guys tt reali didnt deserve to get hurt so bad..i'm reali sori to those i hurt alriteeee....

well i fell in love n am gona stick to it now n forever thameem baby ure my life evrything i wanted u gave to me support love care attention n u actuali listen n respect me baby ure my whole life n more sayaaang...heee i am so sori for being so mushy bt reali hes a great catch i cn nvr n must becareful nvr to hurt

alrites people tts all foor nw a ghost movie is on the waeeeee
CHAOSSS

The Future...things are swinging by reali quickly its the prelims on mondae...the more i tink of it the scarier it becomes-getting good results isnt the thing tt is scaring me its the aftr...whr am i goin to nxt? wat am i gona do? who do i go to? will i make a gd choice? wud i ruin the rest of my life by picking wrongly?....the questions jus keep poping up by the second...it seemed like ystrdae whn i was this reali nerdy asshole doin watever i'm told n look whr i am nw....i stil do wat i told onli at hme...hahas well i'm gona graduate soon!!!! OMG i reali wonder hw it wud be out there...as much as i complain...i've grown so close to tis place...the classroom...the area...secret places to hide..rules to nvr follow n nvr get caught...i tink i'm reali gona miss it...its the class tt i'mma miss the most..3 years n amazing enuf i am nt sick of thm! haahahahs! well i gues all these things hapen for a reason eh? new place new friends cme by all the time its jus up to us to adapt to these changes n move on...instead of siting n dwelling on things tt canot be reversed...


ok enuff of sappy talk i'm turning into someone i reali dont noe animore...hmmm i gues ntin much reali hapened since the last post...jus abit more crying and alot more mugging....aniwaes it will all be over soon enuf...hurhur fastin month is cming excuse to lose weight eh? ahahahah whn wil i ever be holy i swear if tt dae cmes pigs will fly! ahahaha its been raining alot lately maybe HE feels the pain we're feeling rite nw? i maybe its jus science eh? no one noessssss.....aites ima go mugg nw cyaaaa

[x] Natasha
[x] 17
[x] tasha
[x] the world surounds me lyk a jungle full of animals
[x] trys hard to sty alive and strng bt reali needs friends with her and one she cn call true love
[x] Add me up on msn,friendster twisted_fate_92@hotmail.com
[x] i deserve more then just words and empty promises..ure preformace made me stronger!

Boyfriend[complications]
be happy
Ben n Jerrys ice cream[DONE!]
strt poly real fast
lol the rest ask her urself
have all the love in the wolrd
I NEED SLEEEP!!!!!!!!!!

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